The main worry really is money though i dont think it should be a worry. Im off work again which really stressed me out. I am absolutely exhausted. Why is sleeping such a thing? I didnt do anything yday, i went to bed reasonably earlier. I have to do so much to wind down and it takes so long and then it too late. I think the answer is there plus i ran out of the sleeping tablet. Thatd b it it then. Im just keen not to get back into being off work. Why cant life be normal again? Drinking lots of tea. I am trying to rest so i guess thats an achievement. Resisting the urge to be mental bizzy. Overrided the dice. Schedules are good. Radio 4. Zadie smith. They had nick clegg earlier talking about housing. I hav lots of interests. It would b good if they did the artists way again. Its basically one of these sub religions like law of attraction and the central london humanists. Watching hat louise bourgeous thing. Lee marvin on today. Mum said some good things. Pete is amazing. Sally is amazing. Jenni from scrabble is amazing. Jackie w is cool.id like to just write today while resting. Finish off art. I have 3400 twitter followers. Harley has 67700 hits. I am dealing with anna by just sending her i love you and i think your the most beautiful girl in the world every day. Woodhouse is always a problem of ultra reserved not saying anything... Its like with anna it sends me into a spin. I think theres a whole greatcalming on that needs to go on there. People r whats important tho that is part of the problem. Lots of things are on hiatuses. People on instagram r nice. There are lots of v nice people in the world. Harley pattering on the floorboards is irritating.